As I sat with my daughter this morning I realized that our days of just the 2 of us are numbered. So I decided to write her this letter and hope that one day she’ll understand everything I’m saying.
My dearest Danielle,
As I sat with you today in front of the mirror putting on my makeup, I realized that our days of just the 2 of us girls are numbered. Your daddy and I are expecting your little brother to be here in just a few short months, and soon our family of 3 will become a family of 4.
I’ve done my best to prepare you for what’s to come. We’ve talked about your little baby brother and you know that there’s a baby in mommy’s tummy. You even know that the baby will “pop” out of my belly button. You seem excited and I have no doubt that you will be a great big sister. But I have days where I wonder, will I be a good mother and have enough love to go around? Although you may never remember the days when it was just us, I know that I will forever remember them.
You have brought so much joy to our lives. Through the sleepless nights, the dirty diapers, the puke, the crying, and the meltdowns, you have showed me that I have more love to give then I ever knew possible. Even as I sit here trying to write this, you aren’t listening to me and I’m about ready to put you in time out. But then I look at you again and you look at me and say “I love you, mommy”. How can I be mad at you? How can I have anything but love for you?
When your daddy and I decided it was time to give you a sibling I didn’t think I would have so many mixed emotions when the time actually came. As your little brother grows in my belly I wonder how things will change once he’s here. Will I have enough time and love to go around? Will I give you the attention that you need? Will you still feel loved? Will you really understand all the changes that are going on? Will I be good enough for both of you? Will I be ENOUGH?
I know I’m not the first mom to have more than one child. But it’s the first time for me. Danielle, I want you to know that I love you and that no matter what changes over the next few months I will always love you. I know that as my belly is growing, so is my heart. I promise to always make time for you and to be there when you need me. Even if it seems like I am spread thin, just know that you will always be my little girl. You may not understand right away but one day I hope you’ll read this and know how loved you are. You have been a blessing and an answer to all my dreams and prayers. My life would not be the same without you.
I love you always and forever,